I Didn’t Mean It

I didn’t mean it when I wrote your name in a book to say you sucked

I didn’t mean it when I circled yes to being your girlfriend

I didn’t mean it when I emailed them to say I wanted to kill myself because of my grades

I didn’t mean it when I said I couldn’t walk to your place because of my ankle

I didn’t mean it when I said I was ok with you two being a couple

I didn’t mean it when I said I wanted you back after I found out you told her you only wanted me for my rent money

I didn’t mean it when I said it was fine that I couldn’t have my job back because of us being an us 

I didn’t mean it when I reached back out once a year to go out with you

I didn’t mean it when I said you should meet me in the bathroom

I didn’t mean it when I said I missed you

I didn’t mean it when I said we should get together

I didn’t mean it when I sent you those pictures

I didn’t mean it when I said I was fine

I didn’t mean it when I said it was fine 

I didn’t mean it when I said you should trust me

I didn’t mean it when I said I loved you

I didn’t mean it when I said I hated you

I wanted to but I didn’t